becoming soon: the leading lady in my own story

This really has been the story of my life lately...some (ie my housemates) dont really understand it, others are making my life truly the most full it has ever been.

in leu of my watching 500 Days of Summer presently...my favorite song

one procrastination, indivisible...

when all else fails...write just so you can be sure that you have a pretty good grasp on the english language. yeah...i have a paper due in 8 hours, class in 6 and have i started? negative. I did get some good test shots for my project for int photo though so thats cool i guess...probably shouldnt have stayed at my friend b-day till three but oh well I'm doing what I can in my life and trying to extablish a happy give and take of work and play.
     so lately...hmmm what has been happening....oh right i finally turned 21 last tuesday! woo

12 o clock celebration with my faves

skill. 4 inch heels. 1 foot. 4 loco on head and a tad inebriated...mad skills the face says it all

Friday double Birthday dinner at Kyoto, Sushi, Saki Bombs and awesome friends

Jessica's jungle themed Birthday party all of my housemates in our assigned costumes...in case you were wondering...im a football coach, why you ask? i still dont know

All I know is I'm glad I am, though modified and more mature, myself :D i love my life and am truely blessed.

 Midnight City - M83

change came in disguise of revelation sent my soul on fire

it has officially been 2 months since my last post and boy have they been 2 of the most turbulent of my life. I discovered why "heartache" is called as such, met some amazing people who get me more than anyone I have met in college, had a huge number of new experiences, finally allowed myself to start a new prescription that I should have about 6 years ago, had some major ups and downs in essentially all aspects of my life but in all reality I have learned more about myself in these 2 months than any other point in my life. the perscription in question, an antidepressant, was an extremely long time coming and as against it as I was for so long, I finally came to the acception that I need it, not because of my incredible doctor who made me realize that the depression I had, which came back recently in full force, never went away and it truly changed me in ways i consider for the worse. I am so so so happy to report that my reservations were unnessecary and I... am... back? I'm not sure how to explain it but, the person I was always before and was occationally since...the person I am, the person I was looking for for so long... has come back and there are truly no words to describe how happy I am for that. I am me again...not some shell of a person. Its so bittersweet, I wish I would have so so long ago but I know that I myself had to come to this decision on my own but I'm glad I finally did. I by no means am healed, I still have to take far too much medication than I want to, and still resort to my former ways, but I am...happy, lucky to live in the amazing place I do, thankful to have the amazing friends and family I have and grateful...just so grateful for the people who have helped me.

I love my life
I love humanity
I love the whole fucking world, the beauty and the chaos the mystery and enlightenment.... I just love

<3

this song......"hey hey"