citizen kane

Today in my film class we watched Citizen Kane, it was really good. The black and white completely makes the film. It was really interesting considering I have been to Hearst Castle and I know a fair about about William Randolph Hearst.

The opening sequence (not the news reel but the actual opener) completely made the movie. I was just in awe of how ahead of its time it was. Also the clarity is amazing. OH and the camera angles were ridiculous...i'm just saying( oh and thats ridiculous in a good way)

Well I can't really say much more as i'm doing homework, but it is really good.

terrified and caffeine deprived

so college. i am so happy that i am here but i also have this intense feeling that i dont belong. also that i have forgotten everything i have learned in the past 18 years in these past three months. i have horrible concentration. my roommates are m.i.a. most of the time. i am not a party-er. i am ridiculously tired at all times. i cannot concentrate. i cannot. i am really afraid that i won't make it. i want to though. i do. i get my hopes up. i really do.

I Can Feel A Hot One - Manchester Orchestra

yesterday

marked my second day of school with 3 classes oddly spaced between 11 hours. there is my 50 minute u.s. history class at 8 am, and a 20 minute walk away...i am not sure if i will be keeping that one then a have a hour break followed by my 3 hour intro to cinema class followed by a 4hour break before my horribly time placed anatomy of an industry class from 5-7...yes on a friday night...

but really all in all the classes seem really cool, especially my film classes.

the happiest place is moving in with killers

so a whirlwind past three days to say the least.

day one: friday

journey to bonsall but on the way visit 2 kick ass thrift stores. Scored some awesome stuff, a 1978 edition of mastering the art of french cooking by julia child cookbook for...wait for it...wait for it...50 cents, seriously of course it was through an amazing misunderstanding but hey i'll take what i can get. wow i just realized that by putting the best find first everything else seems not so great. well anyways i also got lost in translation for $1.50 and an awesome white leather belt for 25 cents, and some amazing brown leather oxford flats for $3 and a couple of fun shirts. you would think that simply by finding all that amazing stuff it would be an amazing day but no! wait! there's more! the whole reason i went down that way was to go to the killers' concert at sdsu...oh my goodness that was the best concert i've ever been to. when you can sing at the top of your voice to every word of every song, it really makes things extra special. i may have gotten extremely sore the next day and lost my voice that night but it just added to the brilliance of i bought a $30 tour t-shirt which is the most i have ever spent on a shirt but it was well worth it and i figure when in rome...buy roman t-shirts. but oh the concert, nearly perfect. waited a bit too long but it was great.

day two: friday

so the last time i went to disneyland was when i was 7 with my friend and her mom, before that was when i was one apparently, so needless to say my venture was long overdue. a family friend works there so he got free park hopper tickets for us but truth be told it wasn't the best. there is a lot less to do than one thinks. i mean i had a good time, nostalgia kicked in with some of the rides and i was psyched to have a chimichanga again. i enjoyed it but i don't need to return for years and also knott's and six flag= way better, way less commercial, way more fun. it really annoys me how much advertisement and holkieness (not to mention the tantrums...)takes place in those boundaries. the few rides in california are way better but like i said there are only a few of them

day three: sunday

today was unlike any i have had. the first unofficial day of college is intense. the roommate situation is intense. i like the little setup considering it is still a triple. i went on a bike ride, i went to dinner, went to hall meeting, went to a ice cream "social" and then hung out in my one friend's dorm for a couple hours...i'm very nervous and scared that i will not have friends, and that i won't succeed.

life is crazy.

life is beautiful.

life is crazy/ beautiful.

wonders of the world

one of the best things in the world is

meeting new people

and above that connecting with new people.

i've met a keeper and if only he wasn't gay, i would marry him.

i love people who make me feel worth-while.

i love people.

Ta Tunes: Blow Away - A Fine Frenzy

Jeux d'enfants

I have known about Love Me If You Dare (Jeux d'enfants) for years but being as i live in town with a cultureometer in the negatives, and not having netflix I have not been able to see the film (in its whole) until now. When I first discovered it I tried all internet means possible to watch it illegally and in the end I saw a number of clips and new the basic plot as well as the ending before today. The film 2003 starring Guillaume Canet and Marion Cotillard brings out the inner child of anyon who watches it with its fill of fantasy. Its a great ending for me as I love alternate endings and having then in the actual cut of the film is a double bonus for me. Another factor I can't help but love about this film is that the stars are together in real life, I don't know why I love it when costars get together, but I do. This film is whimsical and a fantasy to enjoy, although unless you are fluent in French don't count on being ale to pack while watching.

Even more of a fan than before, Jenny.

two weeks notice

these next couple weeks are going to be some of the biggest in my life, especially the later of the two.

11-16 - packing, last hurah with the friends left

16 - pick up sister from john wayne

17 - last day kind of home, leave that night for my parents new place in bonsall.

18 - the killers concert!

19 - disneyland? scope out sb?

20 - move in to a tiny room w/ two other girls

22 - orientation

24 - first day of class

and tons of stuff in between

The Breeze - Dr. Dog

flowers petals, killers instincts

ok today I read my 9/17 issue of Rolling Stone and the amazingly incredible Brandon Flowers (of The Killers in case you live under a rock) was in it, yay! Ok people do not realize the significance The Killers have on me. They have been a huge inspiration on my life even since I was 12. They were one of the bands that started my love affair with music. Yes that might sound like "wow she didn't love music before", well the true is I have no idea if I did but I wouldn't be surprised if I didn't as my parents are about as unmusical as they come and never really encouraged it. Back to the band, I really dont know how to describe it, Hot Fuss is one of those albums for me that I played so much that I automatically assume that On Top is going to come on right after Andy, You're a Star and such. I must admit that Change Your Mind was my happy song for a ridiculously long time. As of now my favorite song of theirs is from their Sawdust CD, "Tranquilize" but really I cant exactly stick to a single favorite for a long period. Well I am realizing that this post is extremely random and it probably makes little sense. But let me clarify that i think that they are one of the best bands ever and most definitely the best band of the 21 century thus far. And let me also clarify that in 8 wonderful days when I get to see them in concert, I will probably pee my pants I will be/am so damn excited.

well thats the end of my rambling...that was exhausting

and so it is... just like you said it would be.

I'm a melancholy... and I suppose I am allowed to be.

First of all today is my grandmother's birthday, she would have been 85, I miss her... and I still can not talk about it. My sister is going to be moving to London(for a year +) in a few weeks, but this is one of the last nights we will actually be living in the same house. I also am thinking about how my friends will change and feel bad that I didn't do more. I wish I wasn't so sheltered in high school, I am afraid that history will repeat itself even though I will do as much as I can to prevent it. I feel like I have done so little, even for someone my age. So yes, melancholy thats is what I feel, among others.

the temper trap

so i'm thinking... they have a concert at the roxy in la on october 14th, thats the day after their album comes out in the u.s., however its on a wednesday, i will not have a car, and i will have class, but probably not until 10 the next morning...hmm if i could find people to go with to it the tickets are only $15 and i would about pee my pants i would be so excited. i ut i am not going to am going to try really hard to go... really hard. but i'm not going to keep my hopes up because nothing like that ever works out. i must say i really have to get a better draw as way of things actually working out for me. i figure i'm going away from my parental control and my hole of a hometown and i am going to try to "change my stars" as they would say in a knight's tale.

super duper old picture of me, but it makes me happy

there is something about being up in the middle of the night, when just a minimal amount of people are awake, that makes me happy. The calm is so relieving. Of course its not always like that, but perhaps because everything is becoming crap around me lately, I am not stress at this second, when I lay down I probably will be again... but until then, I just finished my book and I'm good. I just want to listen to music.

registering for classes

wow, if you miss orientation they sure don't make things easy. trying to get into intro to cimema, you know for my major! ugh but two classes are full and i don;t even know about the rest of them.

red, white and Blue State

Well lets see... the movie was ok, extremely predictable but generally a pretty good message it gets across. I hated the fact that the characters were such extreme stereotypes. John (the male lead, played by a no-way-in-hell does he look 28, Bricken Meyer) is such an extremist and of course he must have every single liberal stereotype: lives in San Francisco, is vegetarian, won't buy middle eastern gas, etc. etc. etc. Chloe (the awesome Canadian playing an American trying to become a Canadian, Anna Paquin) is a generally more likable character because unlike the rest of the characters, she is not so damn opinionated. I am actually extremely glad that this was not a mainstream film because any republican from my hometown would be like "see this is why liberals are horrible people blah blah blah". I really think I disliked most how obnoxious the characters were, John's father was so loud and irrational that I about stopped that movie. Also ok spoiler alert, the fact that in the end scene he ends up running for Senator so much credibility, for one I would not want him as my senator and I am an extremely liberal person and secondly sure I don't know how long she was in prison for but assuming it wasn't long he is not old enough and in my opinion by him doing that it makes the message seem sideways, its like I went to Canada and now I'm back and I'm just going to continue in my radical ways. Wow it seems like I liked this movie less than I thought. Though let me just say the one solid factor of the film was it's soundtrack, Iron and Wine, Wilco, and Dr. Dog are just a few of the artists chosen to bring this movie out of a bit of a ditch.